Waits on my feet!

I feel bogged down in my spiritual walk and I can't figure out why. I think I know why but I am never positive. I want to be rebaptized. I was baptized when I was 8 I think but I did it because I was supposed to not because I felt moved to and wanted to well, now I do! I want it so bad but I don't want a huge fuss made of me and such so we were supposed to do it tonight after church and well our Assoc. minister said if I didn't want the fuss I should do it a different time and so now when is that time? Wait! I hate to wait! I am not a good waiter.

I am studying more now then ever and my prayer life is increasing I just feel this one thing holding me back and I don't know how to convey this urgency to anyone else.